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Friday, September 05, 2008

Running…

So life is like a good long run, maybe that is why I like them so much… Life is hard; it requires a lot of thought, feeling, perseverance, passion, and will. Sure you need other things but with those you can do almost anything, at least that I how I feel. Everything you do is a risk benefit assessment. Just like running…

So you start a long run and everything is fine, and sure it is a little hard as time goes on but its not too bad. At some times you hit these places where you can just turn around and make it a shorter run but that is not what you are out there for. You continue to run and then at some point you hit the formidable wall. This place where no matter how well you thought you were doing you just feel like crap, you cant breath, you hurt, you just want to crawl in a hole and die a little, sounds great right… all in all it is this great combination of fatigue that comes right at the time when you realize how much more you have to run, and you body starts to ache, and you are aware to how tired you are, all of this comes at the same time and in truth you just want to stop and walk.

But what if you walk, will you really start running again once you feel better, can you really say you went for a long run if it is interrupted by a 5min rest. Can you ever get back to that same run you were on before?

Not to say that if you stop you have failed, life is not black and white and neither is running, if you do stop you have some nice options, you can hall your ass in to gear start again and if you want it enough you can easily get back to where you were on a run. And stopping doesn’t mean that you can’t try again. If you fail and don’t try again isn’t that worse then failing again.

With those questions you just have to put your shoulder in to it and push through it. It is not fun and not easy but trust me on one fact, once you push through that wall and you are clearly on the other side you will know, and everything is ok. You think about how stupid it would have been to stop and you thank yourself for not quitting. It is great in every way, you feel stronger, mostly because you know that if you can push through that then you can push through anything, that is why I run.

How is this like life? Sometime its hard, sometimes you just have to push through the shit and hope that when it is all said and done that it was worth it, or you just hope it is. In the end what is worse… the crap you have to push through, or never knowing what is on the other side of that wall.

you learn a lot about the type of person you are when you hit any wall weather it be running or in life, and find out how you handle it, in running I hit it once a week on my nice long run, in life well those creep up on you and you just have to stay true to who you are and what you believe and know that it is not getting hit that matters but how you handle hardship that truly test you character as a human being.